Battle

The days go on. 

The nights go long. 

Bright lights peer through the window. 

Clock strikes midnight. 

Clock strikes two. 

Clock strikes 6am.

Another sleepless night here and gone. 

The racing thoughts in my brain. 

They will never vanish. 

Although, it would be great to have a blank reset mind. 

Weeks turn into days.

Days turn into hours. 

Hours turn into seconds. 

And seconds -

turn into nothing.  

Sitting in class.

Hearing the voice of the teacher. 

So monotone. 

So 

boring. 

So useless. 

When will I ever need to know this information?

Teach something that matters. 

Something worth our time. 

Something worth -

my time. 

Is it possible that I don't have what it takes to succeed?

The stress.

It overpowers my brain. 

I'm mad 

I'm sad 

I'm emotional 

over nothing. 

Taking it out on the people closest to me. 

Is it possible I tend to take out my stress to the one who can comfort me the most? 

The one I know will calm me down and make me feel like I'm worth it? 

I am worth it. 

At least,

I hope so. 

It's just so difficult for me. 

Learning. 

Listening. 

Staying focused on something that I have no interest in.

Staying focused in general. 

The impossible can not be made possible. 

But it can. 

Everything is possible. 

Is it possible that I am smart enough? 

Is it possible that I have what it takes? 

I do.

I have what it takes. 

I may have the side track of ADD, 

The side track of my anxiety disorder. 

The depression that comes on strong 

and leaves with a smile. 

This can’t stop me from doing things.

Success never comes easy.

Every journey is worth a few fallen steps. 

If it's worth having. 

If it's worth stressing over. 

It will not come easy. 

I am smart enough.

I can do what I put my mind to.

And

I will succeed 

I just need to fight the battle

Get a step closer each time I fall.

This is my battle. 

And I'm going to win.